Man, I didn't realize its been over a month since I posted an update...I'll try and give as much information as I can...
Total weight loss so far: 51.9 lbs
I hit my 50 lb lost mark two weeks before I went on vacation. I was thrilled! I didn't think I was going to do it and it was a total surprise. I treated myself to a hair cut and felt really good. Then things went downhill...
The week before vacation, I was sort of bad when it came to food. I did a lot of snacking and indulging at work. Then I went out to dinner with Shannon and Nicole and wound up eating a buffalo chicken sandwich, fries, ranch, and drinking some very fruity (and high calorie) drinks. I had a blast and, while I considered not doing so, I tracked everything. I weighed in at my mom's house (because we were leaving early on Tuesday) and managed to lose .9 lbs so I was relieved...I didn't want to have a gain two weeks in a row.
So we left for vacation...and my eating went to hell. I didn't even PRETEND to try. I was eating fast food, fried food, sweets, drinking alcohol, and not measuring a single thing. Even my pre-measured snacks for the road trip didn't help. I knew that I would struggle but I had hoped I would have a little more will power. I don't regret any of it...I had an amazing time and enjoyed every bit. But I thought I would have had some more internal control by now. When I got back and weighed in, I was up 5 pounds...not my proudest moment.
Since being back (about 3 weeks now), I have been losing but struggling to really stay on track. I've slipped back into not weighing and measuring everything and I have been snacking at work (and even at home) more than I should. I have slowly been improving and working on holding myself accountable, even when I'm ashamed of my eating habits. I try and go back and track everything because when I neglect my tracker I feel even more guilty. Thankfully, the holidays are almost over so I'm hoping some of the temptation will go away.
I'm just trying really hard to get re-focused and remember why I am doing this. I don't want to be over 200lbs for the rest of my life...I'd really like to be close to my goal weight by this time next year. So I need to go back, review my plan, and stop making excuses and justifications. I know what I need to do...just got to kick my own butt in gear...
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Long time...
So I know its been almost a month since my last post...I have no excuse other than a heavy work load and lack of motivation.
An update on the lost pounds...I'm down 47.2 lbs. A bit disappointed that I haven't hit my 50 lb mark yet. But I have no one to blame but myself.
I've fallen off the wagon...okay, scratch that...I'm still on the wagon but I'm hanging off the edge and my feet are dragging on the ground. I have been doing to many things that I know I shouldn't and I've gotten fed up with myself. My snacking has been out of control. Not only have I been indulging in unmeasured and non-counted chocolate and chips at work but I have also been grazing like crazy at home. If I'm waiting for dinner to cook or trying to decide what to make, I'll grab a cracker here, a few chips there, some almonds, and maybe even some pepperoni without tracking any of it. I've gone back to eating a lot of processed and junk food. There have been many Taco Bell evenings...even a night of McDonald's (during which I didn't even consider WW...lets just say my meal was only -10 from what I get for the WHOLE DAY!). Chips, boxed pasta/mac&cheese, cookies, and candy have taken over my snacking. My fruit and veggie intake has decreased. Its just not pretty.
My weight loss has slowed (I've been under 1 lb per week for the last 4 weeks) and my satisfaction with myself has decreased. But I know I can recommit and do this. I've spent the last hour or so re-reading some of the WW plan materials that you receive when you first join. I'm re-committing myself to making my lunches and stop the grazing and snacking without tracking. I am going to work on going to the gym and really push hard to get back on track. I can't let myself fall off now...the holidays are going to be tough and I'm determined to go into them strong minded and motivated.
An update on the lost pounds...I'm down 47.2 lbs. A bit disappointed that I haven't hit my 50 lb mark yet. But I have no one to blame but myself.
I've fallen off the wagon...okay, scratch that...I'm still on the wagon but I'm hanging off the edge and my feet are dragging on the ground. I have been doing to many things that I know I shouldn't and I've gotten fed up with myself. My snacking has been out of control. Not only have I been indulging in unmeasured and non-counted chocolate and chips at work but I have also been grazing like crazy at home. If I'm waiting for dinner to cook or trying to decide what to make, I'll grab a cracker here, a few chips there, some almonds, and maybe even some pepperoni without tracking any of it. I've gone back to eating a lot of processed and junk food. There have been many Taco Bell evenings...even a night of McDonald's (during which I didn't even consider WW...lets just say my meal was only -10 from what I get for the WHOLE DAY!). Chips, boxed pasta/mac&cheese, cookies, and candy have taken over my snacking. My fruit and veggie intake has decreased. Its just not pretty.
My weight loss has slowed (I've been under 1 lb per week for the last 4 weeks) and my satisfaction with myself has decreased. But I know I can recommit and do this. I've spent the last hour or so re-reading some of the WW plan materials that you receive when you first join. I'm re-committing myself to making my lunches and stop the grazing and snacking without tracking. I am going to work on going to the gym and really push hard to get back on track. I can't let myself fall off now...the holidays are going to be tough and I'm determined to go into them strong minded and motivated.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Weigh-In #23 (I think...)
Weight loss this week: .4 lbs
Total weight loss so far: 45.9 lbs
So I lost again this week...which makes me happy. I didn't over indulge too much on the most amazing Italian food I've ever tasted which makes me even happier. And stress at work is slowly decreasing which, again, makes me happy.
I did have a brief lapse of not caring about counting this weekend...really it was only with these strangly addicting Jalepeno and Monterey Jack Sun Chips. I've had them previously but for some reason, this weekend, they were irresistable. So I had a few more servings than I put in my tracker...but I still stayed within my weekly points so I'm ok.
Things are going ok...planning on trying to get into a workout routine again...fingers crossed...
Total weight loss so far: 45.9 lbs
So I lost again this week...which makes me happy. I didn't over indulge too much on the most amazing Italian food I've ever tasted which makes me even happier. And stress at work is slowly decreasing which, again, makes me happy.
I did have a brief lapse of not caring about counting this weekend...really it was only with these strangly addicting Jalepeno and Monterey Jack Sun Chips. I've had them previously but for some reason, this weekend, they were irresistable. So I had a few more servings than I put in my tracker...but I still stayed within my weekly points so I'm ok.
Things are going ok...planning on trying to get into a workout routine again...fingers crossed...
Monday, October 3, 2011
Getting back on track...
So a few updates on weight...
Last weigh-in (the 23rd) I had gained a pound. Weigh in today, I was down 3.7lbs...putting me at a total of 45.5lbs lost so far. Only 4.5lbs til I hit my 50lb mark...and I can't wait!
Things have been a little out of control. The week of the mud run wasn't exactly as healthy as I would have liked and I think I may have been retaining some water after the 5K (hence the 1 lb gain). And while I had a significant loss this week, I haven't been as on top of my eating as I like to be.
Work was causing some serious stress and, in turn, some poor eating choices (not that I can blame my choices on my job). It was count week and having 50+ students by myself was outrageously overwhelming. Between the stress and the constant presence of junk food at the office (and the lack of time to really eat lunch), I resorted to a lot of fast food and too much snacking. Friday was probably one of the worst days. It was our official count day and I was literally working with my team in the office until midnight. We were fed by the school all day...and my intake consisted of a banana and yogurt (not a bad breakfast), a cheeseburger and bag of Doritos, bad Italian food (pasta, bread, chicken parm, and some crap salad), Gardettos snack mix, and cookies...ouch. Thankfully, I didn't show a gain!
I was able to go grocery shopping on Saturday and picked up a lot of food for the house. I plan on really getting back on track these coming weeks. We don't have the money to eat out this month so that will really cut out the fast food intake. My only concern is that Kyle's grandparents are coming to town for a few weeks. I'm really excited to meet them...and I'm really excited to try his grandmother's cooking (think legit Italian food from a legit Sicilian lol)...but I don't think my weight will be too psyched. I'm just going to try really hard to watch my portions and not go over there starving.
Fingers crossed that reduced work stress will help me get on track.
Last weigh-in (the 23rd) I had gained a pound. Weigh in today, I was down 3.7lbs...putting me at a total of 45.5lbs lost so far. Only 4.5lbs til I hit my 50lb mark...and I can't wait!
Things have been a little out of control. The week of the mud run wasn't exactly as healthy as I would have liked and I think I may have been retaining some water after the 5K (hence the 1 lb gain). And while I had a significant loss this week, I haven't been as on top of my eating as I like to be.
Work was causing some serious stress and, in turn, some poor eating choices (not that I can blame my choices on my job). It was count week and having 50+ students by myself was outrageously overwhelming. Between the stress and the constant presence of junk food at the office (and the lack of time to really eat lunch), I resorted to a lot of fast food and too much snacking. Friday was probably one of the worst days. It was our official count day and I was literally working with my team in the office until midnight. We were fed by the school all day...and my intake consisted of a banana and yogurt (not a bad breakfast), a cheeseburger and bag of Doritos, bad Italian food (pasta, bread, chicken parm, and some crap salad), Gardettos snack mix, and cookies...ouch. Thankfully, I didn't show a gain!
I was able to go grocery shopping on Saturday and picked up a lot of food for the house. I plan on really getting back on track these coming weeks. We don't have the money to eat out this month so that will really cut out the fast food intake. My only concern is that Kyle's grandparents are coming to town for a few weeks. I'm really excited to meet them...and I'm really excited to try his grandmother's cooking (think legit Italian food from a legit Sicilian lol)...but I don't think my weight will be too psyched. I'm just going to try really hard to watch my portions and not go over there starving.
Fingers crossed that reduced work stress will help me get on track.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Dirty Girl Mud Run
So...before I get into the mud run...I realize I haven't posted weigh-in updates in two weeks. Since my last post, I've lost 1.5lbs putting my total weight loss at 42.6lbs. I'll try and get better about posting weekly again.
Moving on...today was the Dirty Girl Mud Run. I was unprepared...I was nervous...but I am so grateful that Beth pushed me to do it!
Our wave left the starting line at 11:45am. The first thing that comes up was the hay-bale climb. From far away, it looked like no big deal...but once you got right up to it, it was definitely huge. But I was able to complete that with little to no problem. Right after that was the tube crawl. Then came the water pit...first chance to get dirty! The water was cold and it was weird to walk with squishy shoes but it was fun. Next was the high leg tires...I did it slowly because I have short legs and am far from coordinated. The next was one of my favorites...the mud hill climb and descent. They had ropes that you held to try and climb up. The first one, I fell and slid down on my belly. But I got back up and completed it. Going down was fun...slide down on your butt and wind up in a mud pit at the end...totally dirty! The second one I was able to complete easier. The mud up the butt was a little unpleasant...but I sure was grateful I didn't wear shorts lol. We came to the hanging tires next...that was pretty simple. Then the net crawl...the first one you walked under and just lifted the net...the next one required you to crawl. Next was the wall...this was the only obstacle I skipped. I was a little sad to skip it but it was really scary and I just couldn't get over it. The second to last obstacle was the cargo net climb...oh man was that thing TALL! I was terrified...shaking and having a tough time catching my breath. I almost didn't do it...but thanks to Beth and some other awesome ladies, I managed to conquer it! And finally...there was the mud pit...it was more like water but it was and awesome way to end it none the less.
I am now home...sunburned...exhausted...sore...and totally thrilled that I did it! It was so much fun and I couldn't have picked a better partner to get me through it! I walked the whole way...but I made it and that is all that matters! I definitely plan on doing it again next year and I will be recruiting more people :)
Moving on...today was the Dirty Girl Mud Run. I was unprepared...I was nervous...but I am so grateful that Beth pushed me to do it!
Our wave left the starting line at 11:45am. The first thing that comes up was the hay-bale climb. From far away, it looked like no big deal...but once you got right up to it, it was definitely huge. But I was able to complete that with little to no problem. Right after that was the tube crawl. Then came the water pit...first chance to get dirty! The water was cold and it was weird to walk with squishy shoes but it was fun. Next was the high leg tires...I did it slowly because I have short legs and am far from coordinated. The next was one of my favorites...the mud hill climb and descent. They had ropes that you held to try and climb up. The first one, I fell and slid down on my belly. But I got back up and completed it. Going down was fun...slide down on your butt and wind up in a mud pit at the end...totally dirty! The second one I was able to complete easier. The mud up the butt was a little unpleasant...but I sure was grateful I didn't wear shorts lol. We came to the hanging tires next...that was pretty simple. Then the net crawl...the first one you walked under and just lifted the net...the next one required you to crawl. Next was the wall...this was the only obstacle I skipped. I was a little sad to skip it but it was really scary and I just couldn't get over it. The second to last obstacle was the cargo net climb...oh man was that thing TALL! I was terrified...shaking and having a tough time catching my breath. I almost didn't do it...but thanks to Beth and some other awesome ladies, I managed to conquer it! And finally...there was the mud pit...it was more like water but it was and awesome way to end it none the less.
I am now home...sunburned...exhausted...sore...and totally thrilled that I did it! It was so much fun and I couldn't have picked a better partner to get me through it! I walked the whole way...but I made it and that is all that matters! I definitely plan on doing it again next year and I will be recruiting more people :)
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Disappointed
So I know I didn't update last week's weigh-in...sorry about that. I spend so much time on my computer and phone for work that blogging is the last thing on my mind most days.
I lost .4 lbs last week taking my grand total to 41.1 lbs lost so far.
I'm not disappointed in my progress in weight loss. I'm still extremely excited that I've managed to lose 40 lbs since mid-April. What I'm disappointed in is myself and my motivation...or rather, lack there of.
I cannot seem to get into the swing of exercising. I don't know what it is...I don't know if its a mental thing or if I'm lazy or if there is something else going on. I'm just so tired...a lot. I know most of it is due to working long hours, working a job that requires me to think (something I haven't had to do in over a year and a half), and stress (both work and personal). But the ironic thing is that exercise would very likely help relieve my stress and boost my energy...sounds like something I should want to do, right? I do WANT to do it...I do. But I guess I just lack the internal motivation to do so. I have thought about trying to get a personal trainer but I honestly couldn't afford it even if I tried. So, what do I do?
I set my alarm every night with enough time for me to get up and work out for an hour in the morning. Do I get up? Of course not! I reset my alarm and wake up at the last possible moment. I tell myself I'll work out after work. Do I make it to the gym? Of course not! I come home, plant myself on the couch, and watch tv while I work. I tell myself I'll go for a walk in the evenings. Has that happened? Once...and not again since then, even though I've said it almost every single day since. What the hell is wrong with me?
The Dirty Girl Mud Run is 2 weeks away...2 weeks! I haven't even walked 3.2 miles yet. I am going to embarass the hell out of myself...I'm honestly just praying that adrenenline will carry me through most of it.
I'm embarrassed that I can't even motivate myself enough to do the things that I need to do to be healthy. Yes, my eating habits have improved significantly and I'm still losing weight. But I NEED to exercise...I know I'll feel better about myself and actually start seeing my weight loss. I mean...40 lbs later and I'm still wearing the same pants I wore when I started. They may be loose...but I can still wear them. I dunno...maybe I'm throwing myself a pity party. Maybe I just need to kick myself in the ass somehow. Maybe I'm scared I can't really do this.
Whatever it is...it sucks.
I lost .4 lbs last week taking my grand total to 41.1 lbs lost so far.
I'm not disappointed in my progress in weight loss. I'm still extremely excited that I've managed to lose 40 lbs since mid-April. What I'm disappointed in is myself and my motivation...or rather, lack there of.
I cannot seem to get into the swing of exercising. I don't know what it is...I don't know if its a mental thing or if I'm lazy or if there is something else going on. I'm just so tired...a lot. I know most of it is due to working long hours, working a job that requires me to think (something I haven't had to do in over a year and a half), and stress (both work and personal). But the ironic thing is that exercise would very likely help relieve my stress and boost my energy...sounds like something I should want to do, right? I do WANT to do it...I do. But I guess I just lack the internal motivation to do so. I have thought about trying to get a personal trainer but I honestly couldn't afford it even if I tried. So, what do I do?
I set my alarm every night with enough time for me to get up and work out for an hour in the morning. Do I get up? Of course not! I reset my alarm and wake up at the last possible moment. I tell myself I'll work out after work. Do I make it to the gym? Of course not! I come home, plant myself on the couch, and watch tv while I work. I tell myself I'll go for a walk in the evenings. Has that happened? Once...and not again since then, even though I've said it almost every single day since. What the hell is wrong with me?
The Dirty Girl Mud Run is 2 weeks away...2 weeks! I haven't even walked 3.2 miles yet. I am going to embarass the hell out of myself...I'm honestly just praying that adrenenline will carry me through most of it.
I'm embarrassed that I can't even motivate myself enough to do the things that I need to do to be healthy. Yes, my eating habits have improved significantly and I'm still losing weight. But I NEED to exercise...I know I'll feel better about myself and actually start seeing my weight loss. I mean...40 lbs later and I'm still wearing the same pants I wore when I started. They may be loose...but I can still wear them. I dunno...maybe I'm throwing myself a pity party. Maybe I just need to kick myself in the ass somehow. Maybe I'm scared I can't really do this.
Whatever it is...it sucks.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Weigh In #18 and #19
So I didn't blog last week because things at work are so unbelievably busy...so here is the update
Weight loss last week: .4lbs
Weight loss this week: 2.4lbs
Total weight loss so far: 40.6lbs
Things are NUTS!! Truly. With us being in the middle of enrollment and opening a new site...AND being a new teacher...its like the work never ends. I work all day...then come home and work...and I work more on the weekends. I generally am working from 9am-10pm daily and it varies on the weekends.
Because of all this craziness, my eating habits are sporadic at best. There were a few days last week that I ate breakfast (and by breakfast I mean a yogurt in the car) and then didn't eat again until dinner at 8pm. I just didn't have time. I'm working really hard at creating boundaries and making sure I take care of myself. Its just been so easy to get so sucked in to work because there is always more to do. I cannot wait until enrollment is over and things settle down.
Overall, I'm thrilled with my progress. Trying to get in some exercise because the Dirty Girl is less than a month away...
Weight loss last week: .4lbs
Weight loss this week: 2.4lbs
Total weight loss so far: 40.6lbs
Things are NUTS!! Truly. With us being in the middle of enrollment and opening a new site...AND being a new teacher...its like the work never ends. I work all day...then come home and work...and I work more on the weekends. I generally am working from 9am-10pm daily and it varies on the weekends.
Because of all this craziness, my eating habits are sporadic at best. There were a few days last week that I ate breakfast (and by breakfast I mean a yogurt in the car) and then didn't eat again until dinner at 8pm. I just didn't have time. I'm working really hard at creating boundaries and making sure I take care of myself. Its just been so easy to get so sucked in to work because there is always more to do. I cannot wait until enrollment is over and things settle down.
Overall, I'm thrilled with my progress. Trying to get in some exercise because the Dirty Girl is less than a month away...
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