Total weight loss so far: 73.2 lbs
Well, I've clearly been severly neglecting my blog. Do I have an excuse? Absolutely not. But enough of that...
Things have been up and down...week by week I struggle and succeed. I have been getting off track more often than I'd like to admit. I'll do really well during the week but then the weekends hit and I fall off. I snack and don't track. I make excuses for "guesstimating". I just stop really focusing on what is good for me.
I have also been struggling with the gym...still. I have maintained my membership and I still go generally at least once a week. But its been almost 2 months since I've been more than 3 times in a week. I'm not sure why my motivation wanes so easily. I wish I were one of those people who channel their emotions into exercise but I haven't found a way to do that yet. When I'm angry or upset...I want to be alone, pout, and eat. I wish I knew how to change that desire into one for exercise. My boyfriend did just find a job that will require him to work nights. I find that I often make excuses for not going to the gym because I want to spend time with him. I'm hoping that the knowledge of him not being home will help me eliminate the excuses I have to skip the gym. I know its a process...I just wish it all came naturally to me.
Despite it all, I have still managed to lose weight. I just need to really refocus myself and stop allowing the excuses. That is what got me to such a high weight in the first place.
